Free flow

My mother tells a story of me helping my drunken neighbor, who had passed out on the pavement next to our house. I was young about 13 years old and he needed help, so I helped him. Do I remember this incident? Absolutely not, do I believe her? Absolutely, because I know that my heart today could never leave a neighbor on the ground when I could help, so my innocent (ish) 13 year old self would definitely not be able to let that go. Why am I telling you this story? Because today I decided to just let whatever comes out of me come out freely and that I will share it with you without being too concerned with what the neighbors will think or the church will think or just anyone really. My life is my life and all this shame that people feel they need to force on me and on you is just not cool.

Share your light

Fear is ruling the world at the moment, people are afraid of the unknown, they always have been and probably always will be. People that allow fear to be their ruler are dangerous people, because fear is from darkness and it tries to put out the light that shines in all of us. But allContinue reading “Share your light”

When _______ creeps in, keep calm and just smile.

So today is day 16 of South Africa’s official lock down but day 26 of my self isolation and now things are starting to get interesting. It’s time for me to start looking into how the bills will get paid with me not being able to work a single day in the month of April.Continue reading “When _______ creeps in, keep calm and just smile.”

It’s a war we can win

There is a fight going on between light and darkness. Anger vs calm, fear vs peace, joy vs sadness and love vs hate. This is not a new fight, its been here since the beginning of time, but it looks like the source of darkness has upped its game a notch or 50. The worldContinue reading “It’s a war we can win”

Controlled

I finally understand why I have been such a control freak all my life. It’s because I have rarely been in situations that have not been controlled in one way or another. I panic when control is lost, because the reality is control is comfort for me. It started with my mom, she loved control,Continue reading “Controlled”

The truth is

The truth is: I want to quit often, but I can’t… not only because I have little eyes that look up to me, or because I have a pattern of not completing certain things… I can’t quit because if I do, it means I give in to the voice that tells me I can’t doContinue reading “The truth is”

Real life

It’s easy to sit on the outside and watch in making comments about what people should and should not be doing. The real test is when you are faced with the same situations and if you take your own advice, or do you cower away. I never write about things I have not experienced forContinue reading “Real life”