I’ve been really focused on learning for the last 2 weeks, looking up what I can to fill me with information about everything I am curious about. I’ve grown in many ways in just 2 weeks. Throwing myself into what I love doing has made me feel alive.

So what does this mean for me? It means that I know better now and have to do better. I can’t fill myself with knowledge and not apply it to my every day life. I think this is the gap that most are missing. People are knowledgable but afraid to apply their knowledge. Fear of failure is a paralysing thing for many and fear of rejection too. It stems from that part of you that never wants to feel rejection again, or never wants to feel stupid again. We have fears based on our previous experiences and we tend to act on what is in front of us based on the knowledge or emotions felt in the past.

While this has kept me safe up until now, it has also held me back from growing into my full potential. Potential – such a powerful word, it means: having or showing the capacity to develop into something in the future. It represents latent qualities or abilities that may be developed and possibly lead to future success or usefulness.

Potential. I have had this word thrown at me so many times that I can’t even keep count. Every time a different thought would enter my mind. Sometimes arrogance, sometimes insecurity and sometimes hope. It just depended on where I was emptionally that day. While others may see potential in you, it means nothing until you can identify it within yourself.

Why am I writing about this today? Well the roots have finally set and I am beginning to show signs of life where once there appeared to be nothing. I finally had a moment, where the information has turned into an application. “Applied knowledge is power”, I’ve heard this being repeated this week by 3 different people, from different countries. There’s no point knowing how to meditate, but never doing it, there’s no point knowing how to change your health situation but never applying the knowledge to improve your health and there’s no point understanding what you want without actively pursuing it. If you aspire to be something or someone, you have to actually use your knowledge and skillset to be that person. If you don’t have the knowledge or skillset to be the best version of yourself then you must dive into finding the answers, acquiring the knowledge and doing what you need to do to get to where you need to go.

Not everyone is going to support you, and some may think you have completely lost it. This is fine, let them live their lives how they choose and you keep living yours. The biggest thing holding us back from our dreams is people. What will they say? How will they feel? What if they dont like it? What if they reject me? People are the number 1 reason for most of my dreams being squashed and written off. I have always felt that they have a say in what I do with my life.

I’m now at a point where I see how people should never have had a say in how I choose to live my life. It’s my life after all. The audacity of me ever feeling like I had a say about how my friends choose to live! Or even my family! What craziness lies in this thought. People who want to control other people are doing it for self preservation. they need to keep you on their level in order to feel worthy and successful. Once you elevate yourself to a level that they cannot understand then they retaliate, they are threatened and they will do everything they can to bring you back down to a level that they can understand. Don’t let this happen, instead stand your ground, elevate yourself to your fullest potential and then lift others up, teach them, help them and advise them on how you found your way to your destiny.

I haven’t reached my fullest potential as yet, I’ve just begun my journey, but as I learn and grow, I have evey intention on sharing the lessons along the way. I look around me and I see so much pain, internal pain, in the hearts of those that are trapped in their pain, in their past. I see pain in the hearts of those that are desperate to free themselves but dont know how. That is why I write these stories. That is why I share myself. Because I know what it feels like to be trapped, and to not know what to do or how to do it.

Keep searching for what’s in your heart and it will find it’s way to you. It’s not hopeless, it’s not impossible. It just takes time and perserverence. It takes bravery, it takes action and it takes focus.

Love and light.

Tammy