The truth is: I want to quit often, but I can’t… not only because I have little eyes that look up to me, or because I have a pattern of not completing certain things… I can’t quit because if I do, it means I give in to the voice that tells me I can’t do it, then I will never do anything. I have to keep pushing through all my fears because if I don’t my life will fall into a dark space that I know only too well. I can’t allow myself into that space because getting out of it is really tough and sometimes feels impossible, especially when you are drowning in the darkness that many give into.

The truth is: I am afraid often, but I can’t stop pushing through my fears because the feeling of being on the other side of a conquered fear is indescribable. The freedom of not letting fear kick your ass is the most rewarding feeling of freedom you will have. It’s how you free yourself one fear at a time in the realm of complete freedom from everything that holds you back.

The truth is: Bad habits linger in the background, they never 100 % go away, they wait for you in the dark corners, ready to pounce as soon as you are struggling, but you can’t allow them back in, and if you do, you have to remember why you stopped in the first place. You have to keep working at your positive reinforcements that got you to push those habits out in the first place.

The truth is: NOBODY is perfect, nobody ever will be perfect and if you expect perfection in people you are going to be dissapointed. Holding others to a high standard is a reflection of the standard you hold yourself to. I have no issues with high standards, but perfection is impossible, so stop looking for it and instead look for happiness, joy, love and peace in people and therin you will find what you are looking for.

The truth is: I want more, but I know that in order to get to where I what to be I have to work harder than I have worked before. That to whom much is given much is required and the responsibility of more can sometimes be overwhelming. Where I am now is preparing me for my next step and I have to conquer this stage before I can move to the next.

The truth is: you are a reflection of your inner thoughs and beliefs and if you are internally dark and damaged then your external life will reflect that in some way shape or form. But its not impossible to rectify darkness and fill those gaping holes with light and love.

The truth is: Nobody truly know the point of it all, we try to understand as best as we can. We look for God in the only ways we know how and we search for redemption the only way we know how. Religion separates us more than it brings us together, but God is love and he unifies us in ways beyond our understanding.

The truth is: Sometimes I’m confused about what it is I should be doing and sometimes its crystal clear. So why is there doubt? Which direction do I follow? The truth is the only direction to follow is the one inside of me, my inner feeling of this feels right or this feels wrong. Thats the direction I am meant to go.

The truth is: Nobody actually knows what the truth actually is, we are all just winging it through life, doing the best we can with the information that we have been given, whether it be correct information or incorrect information.

That is the absolute truth, at least to me.

Tammy

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